That is a post I started to write way back when in December. I never finished the post because, no surprise, it's difficult to write about. I sobbed the entire way home from the airport. I could barely leave her at the gate with the attendant. You have my child!! GIVE HER BACK. She gets carsick. Make sure she has a puke bag. She has snacks in her back and a movie player and paper and markers and books and and and.... make sure she remembers to eat.
I sobbed and cried and called Joe to sob and say "I forgot to have her call you before she got on." sob sob sob.
Joe had a hard time having her be away. (Once again, insert "real" Mom thoughts here: she is MINE. how do you think I feel?!? and insert my reply: I'm sorry. I love her too.)
Jump to today and why I am continuing a post I started 4 months ago.... a similar, but more difficult departure is rapidly approaching. She leaves for Utah FOR THE ENTIRE SUMMER after school ends at the end of May. That is less than 2 months away. OH MY GOD I CANNOT DO THIS OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER. (again insert the same imaginary dialogue from above).
I wish there was a way to impress upon you the beauty of Joe's relationship with his little baby Eliza Jane. He has cried when she had the flu. He cries when he has the slightest reminder about her upcoming absence. He may not like that I am disclosing his crying here. It is not obscene amounts of crying. He is manly, I swear. But, I wonder how he is going to enjoy life without her here. He teaches her to love bugs and to eat her dinner without taking a millennia to do it. He watches her baby her cat with a shake of the head and a tear in his eye. He encourages her astounding creativity and to get dirty. He wants to protect her from scrapes and mean friends, and silly boys-- but knows that he can't. So, he teaches her to understand the world instead.
Eliza the photographer took this on one of their daddy-daughter beach trips
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Oh. This breaks my heart. I can't even imagine....
What is all this talk of crying? I have done no such thing.
Good thing you are remaining anonymous Joe. Very tricky.
I am sorry that you guys all have to go through these goodbyes and periods of missing Eliza. I am glad, however, that she is coming to Utah! Do you think Brigitta will help her to meet up with us? Gracie misses her so bad!
I have been thinking about the same thing. I'm going to have Joe ask her about that. Eliza would love it too, and I want her to get to see her Aunt Kelli too. :)
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